I've been struggling with the kind of self-defeating thinking lately that happens for me every February. I have particularly vivid memories of hitting this emotional trough every year at university. Most of the year I can make myself ignore the kind of self-serving, negative or passive-aggressive stuff that people feel compelled to dole out (and it seems especially prevalent on-line right now), but not in February.
The good news is that though I seem to be stuck on a treadmill of doing drawings in a sort of neutral brain zone (when I should be painting), I am getting a lot of satisfaction out of just showing up at the drawing board every day. And then I hear or read something that strikes a chord and I know I'm okay. Today, while doing the errands-for-the-old-folks run to the North Shore, I heard Jian Ghomeshi interviewing Gang of Four on Q. Though there was nothing shout-out-loud revolutionary about what they had to say (some of it was pretty muddled and rambling actually) there was a lot of insight for those working in the creative trenches. (It should be posted on the Q site here tomorrow.)